Noisetheorem

Ok, Ive come to a few conclusions:

1. I need to take a mental & emotional vacation. Ive done some things and said some things recently that I must question.

2. The music I am working on with Mystique must be my focus for now. It will be the source of a new beginning.

To that end, I am going to take a break from LJ and from my online mailing lists and most certainly from any kind of romantic entanglements. I need to get this album done – maybe I didnt realize just how much I did. Its really at last the music Ive wanted to write my whole life. We finished 1.5 tracks of the 10 (11?) we have and I am very proud of it. I havnt been able to say that before about anything ive done.

so…until C10 (at which I hope to see you) you can find me by phone or IM (that I will still have on).

It is now, at last, time.

Bye for now.

well, I had quite a night last night. Went to see Wolfsheim at metro. We go there late, and for whatever reason, no one asked us for tickets (i.e. it was free). The after party was free to, as we had drinking bracelets from the metro….Nice!

Overall, Wolfsheim was ok. I have the same problem with them I have with most keyboard based bands, and that is they dont really move much. They did reinforce my own fashion sense though by being dressed like two guys who might come over to fix your PC at your desk rather than rock stars…

Well, now I am going to work in the studio for a while, and then some appointements. I am tempted to get a drum machine today…

If there is one thing that can be said about my life, its that it is anything but cliche, boring or standard. I never cease to be amazed at the turns, twists and loops of it. I really do feel like its being scripted sometime – some crafty writer tapping out page after page for day after day of my life. whoever it is, they have a strange sense of irony and humor, and unlike me, they seem to plan things way in advance.

Last night something happened. I am reticent to talk about it in a public forum, but I do feel the need to. I talked to Mystique about it and got her good perspective. damn its strange. If anyone someone wants to talk about it, IM me: chasingzero (yahoo & AIM).

Now that was a weird night… I dont know what to think of what I think happened. fuck.

My brain hurts.

Im going to sleep now.

boy do I feel good this morning.

‘Skin’ is progressing nicely…. I think I finaly got the last of the musical bits. the rest is going to be vocal work – Ive got major production ideas…

damn, i need to find a good engineer to work with though. I mean, I know production and some engineering, but I am not a pro in that regard (I am, after all, def on one side).

Anyone know someone in the chicago area who is A-good B-cheep C-Not an asshole?

Really really cant wait to get this thing finished right.

HURRAAHHHHHHH

I cant believe its finaly done. the project ive been beating myself over for 6 months…done today…uploaded…accepted….done…

There are still a few loose ends to tie, but they are the next project, not a bigger one than this though – this was the framework for entire data transmission system between my largest client and their new corporate HQ.

I am going to have a good drink when I get home!

wow, is my head spinning. And I havnt even had a drink.

Prednisone….notice it starts with the the prefix ‘Pred’ like in Predator…

thats how I feel…

damn I need a woman.

WOW is this prednisone hitting me hard. Ive been far more agressive than I normaly ever get without alcohol being involved….I am just plain looking for a fight. This is all good, considering today has been kind of a cluster fuck.

looking forward to seeing what Mystique has done with the studio lighting, and also doign a little music work tonight.

This week is total burn out…then the weekend….AFTERBURN!!!!

boy am I riled up!!!

Ok…so ive been on my annual ‘Smiths’ kick….I listened to a couple of their CD’s last night while getting some work done. That music always just puts me in a certain flippant, sarcastic state of mind that I relish. just the line “I left the south, I traveled north, I got confused – I killed a horse…I cant help the way that I feel”..I love it.

Anyway, my health is steadily returning. I cant believe how sick I was…It crept up on me, and I didnt even realize it. I feel soooo much of my energy coming back. I worked till 1:00 am last night on some data updates, and then got up at 6:00 without a hitch..and above all, I can breathe, and breathe well… Not so much as a weeze coming out of me today!!

So, tonight is happy hour, and then I attack the studio again. The accoustic foam is up, and that closet is now dead as coffin. I only pray Mystique is not claustrophobic – this would not do at all.

well, off to work. work work work. I am actually feeling really good to be alive.

had a little moment today with the girl….

hmmm…nice.

Anyway, i think she may just be interested a little more openly. friday was better than I thought…

hmmm…nice

anyway, im working late and then to the studio!

soooo much to do!